everytime i close my eyes
your face appears
behind a disguise
of hatred, of broken rooms
unfinished stories
with me inside

you cry to hurt, i hurt and cry
i lie and curse
you say goodbye
a million times, a million sounds
ringing in my head at night
calling out to rescue me
i’ll never ask
you to rescue me
i never meant
to fall in love
but i’ll never ask you
to not fall back out

were you ever really in
did you ever care enough
are you really who
you say you are
do you smile when you’re happy
do you frown when i’m sad?

is it true it seems you’re always leaving
or is it that you were never here?
i’m never without you
were you ever, ever here?
are you ever here..

Gabriel

i love you for who you are
but i hate you for what you’re not
i’ll kill myself to get to you
but i can’t stop your urge to die

i’ll hold your hand
keep you from drowning
i’ll stumble and fall if that’s what it takes

distant signs warn me of danger
i’m not allowed to dive head first
but i’ll crack my skull if that will give you
something to hold on to at night

i love you for who you are
but i hate you for who i’ve become
i’ll kill myself to get to you
but i can’t handle your urge to die

i’ll hold your hand
keep you from drowning
i’ll stumble and fall if that’s what it takes

i’ll stumble and fall if that’s what it takes..

if that’s what it takes….

Gabriel

my heart stopped when you started to leave
did this mean it was really over
did this mean we would have to go
back to the beginning

i turned around as my eyes filled with tears
but you turned your back on me
i needed your arms around me
but you needed your hands to shut the door
the door slammed shut in front of me..

i thought of things to say, to do
i never did what i said i’d do
i never said what i wanted..

you pinned me down, i shut you out
just stuff i couldn’t handle
i never believed you really loved me
i just loved the idea to start with

you came back, held me close
you were further away than ever
i needed your arms around me
and you needed your mind to shut the door
your heart slammed shut in my face..

i thought of things to say, to do
i never did what i said i’d do
i never said what i wanted..

Gabriel

just arouse me
get on me
i’m waiting for you here

think of me
get off on me
i’ll be your drug for free

slap me
shake me
i’m waiting for you here

take me
break me
i’ll be your drug for free

Gabriel

keep your hands on my shoulders
i want to be down
break my teeth with your shovel
there’s nothing like pain
cut my wrists when you’re watching
i won’t try to calm down
break my heart with your laughter
there’s nothing but pain

think of me when you fuck her
i’ll think of you when i die
remember all the laughter, it was killing me inside
fuck you and your jokes
i’ll kill your big blue eyes
remember all the laughter, your deathwish arose

Gabriel